SELF-DISCIPLINE

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~ as written by Linda Kavelin Popov
Virtues Project Reflection Cards

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MY TWO SENSE:

What a perfect pick on the first day back to blog. Dr. Dan Popov says that Grace picks the card through our hand to show us what we need to know. Whether the lesson comes as a confirmation or a calling is ours to discern by asking, "What is the lesson?" When I consider that question, it only takes a second for the list of lessons to line up. Not only am I requiring an obvious boost in Self Discipline here in blog writing as evidenced by the last entry date, but also in life in general. I know in health I am not at my best and the activities I choose for myself that do not facilitate my excellence are completely in my control, yet I too lack the self-discipline to do what I know is right. I have issues that I keep buried deep inside that force me to live my life in a sideways manner. Does this mean I live in a slanted house like the Joker? No. It means I do things I know I shouldn't do and sometimes turn a blind eye to things I shouldn't be.

I walk an emotional tightrope between what my heart wants and what my head wants, for me. The kicker is, that my self discipline is not the only one that is in play here. The self discipline of everyone around me has a direct influence on whether I am doing the right thing or not. Until I can practice self-discipline in the company of those who don't (practice) then waters will be muddy. I can only control me.

Truthfully, I sense that when the reflection of the life I want does not match the life I have, then there is a pretty toxic reaction that, on the surface, appears as inner conflict. When I go deeper, it ties into the beliefs I have acquired over my 50+ years, both right and wrong. What's right is, I believe that inner conflict is Graces way of trying to gently guide me in another direction. I just have to listen and discern which steps I'll take today.

What is helpful?: Knowing that every day is a new day, a clean slate to begin again. Today I embrace the strength to call on self-discipline to steer my life up-right.